Just one of these weeks…again.

You know, when you just feel down and you think nothing’s ever gonna work out…plus I got a cold (but I’m starting to get better now).

I feel like this again since Saturday now. There’s so much stuff in my head, so much I worry about, it drives me insane. And at this point I really gotta thank my boyfriend. When I’m feeling like this, everything just annoys me and I can be a total bitch, but he's putting up with me (I don't know how he does this!). We had a big argument two nights ago, I’m not gonna tell you all that’s been said (I have been a complete bitch I tell you!) but I made it seem like I’m about to give up, like the plans I or better we have, our relationship, everything…but I’m really not!

I mean, most of the time I know that everything’s gonna work out the way I planned it, because I’m willed to do whatever it takes to get me where I want to be.
But then, some days I really just break down and cry. Some days, it just seems like the plans and dreams I have will never become reality. Some days I think I want too much.
But don’t we all feel like this sometimes? Don’t you ever have that inner feeling that you just don't belong where you are? That you can do better? That you deserve better? Well I’m feeling like this, almost every day. And I just want to change it. I don’t just wanna think or talk about it. I wanna go out and do something, do all I can.

And all I’m asking for, is living the life I want. And in this life it’s just about being happy. Simple. I don’t want much. I just want to be able to say “Yes, my life is not perfect, but I’m happy.” That’s it. Is that really too much to ask for?!

But right now I have no other choice than being patient and try being as positive as possible. I’m doing the best I can already to get where I want to, I can’t do more and that’s what really annoys me. I feel like I’m doing so much but I can’t see any success.

Anyway, all I can do now is keep going and I’m sure, soon things will change. I just have to wait (I HATE WAITING!).

So let’s all just keep calm and drink tea, the world is so much better with a good cuppa.

On that note, cheers!
Sab